Onward and Upward

I’m having a pretty charged up morning, thanks to my lovely roommate who makes me coffee nearly every day. I’ve just been considering my life. Sometimes I have to stop and think: Am I doing the right things?

I honestly believe the answer to that question is yes.
The life that I have chosen isn’t always easy. In fact, it’s quite challenging, and no I don’t always do things right. I’ve lost a lot, sacrificed a lot, and screwed up a lot.

I’ve also learned so many things because of it. I believe that I’ve learned more in this manner than I would have if I’d just stayed in Edmond or Oklahoma City my whole life and did things the way other people told me I should. What works for one person doesn’t always for another.
I’m only going to be 21 and free for so long. It’s just not in my makeup to stay in the same place for long right now, or to do the same things. I have an explorer in my heart. Adventure is what makes me happiest. I think as I go along, I’m going to get a lot better at what I do. I’m going to learn how to really make it work for me. But this has always been my dream, how could I ever just let that go? I’ve been placed in the unique position where I’m able to travel and do things…well, “alternatively.”

Not all those who wander are lost. In fact, I feel like I find a little bit more of myself all the time. That’s my ultimate goal: to be truly and authentically myself, and to really love who I am. I won’t always have such an extreme way of doing things. I know one day I want to have a family. Although I’ll always do things a little bit differently, I know I will settle some later on. And I really believe my family will be all the better for the things I’m doing now. I won’t settle for average, I never have. I love the best things. If I’m not my best self, how could I ever be all that I want to be for my family? I still have so much progress to make. I’m just a baby! The world is my playground. How do humans learn best? Play. That is how we learn. And so I’ll play.

I’m doing something that a lot of people don’t do though, I’m following my dreams. The price can be high, but I haven’t really screwed anything up seriously. I want to see as much as possible and learn as much as possible. All of these things I do grow me. When I make mistakes, I learn.

I’m excited to say that I’m moving to California in about 9 months. This doesn’t mean I’m going to live there forever, but it is the next destination on my life map and I can’t wait to see what opportunities it holds for me.

Onward and Upward
-Chris